Hello all,
You've all probably just read the old post for this, and I first off owe you all an appology. I won't deny that I have overreacted. I've acted childish. I've taken things personally I shouldn't have. And, overall, I have acted in a way the reflects poorly on my character and countince. When I showed up on this server a while ago, I was so in over my head that I looks to you all offbeat guidance, and guidence you provided. You've given me a lot to think about, and I hope to one day be a better friend and a better member of this beautiful community.
For now, all I can do is learn. Life is turbulent, and sometimes we hold a grudge, something which I've done all too often. All we can do is remember that we're all as confused as we are ourselves. Nobody has everything figured out and nobody ever attains the perfection we first dream of. All we can do is reach out to every person and say "hey, I'm here too" and make our little corner of the world better than when we found it. So, I'm taking a break, and when I come back I hope to make my little corner of massive better than the mess I left it in, and reach out those players like me who are confused and hurt and just say "hey, I'm here too." I can say now that, yes someone is there. Yes. Someone cares.
You've all probably just read the old post for this, and I first off owe you all an appology. I won't deny that I have overreacted. I've acted childish. I've taken things personally I shouldn't have. And, overall, I have acted in a way the reflects poorly on my character and countince. When I showed up on this server a while ago, I was so in over my head that I looks to you all offbeat guidance, and guidence you provided. You've given me a lot to think about, and I hope to one day be a better friend and a better member of this beautiful community.
For now, all I can do is learn. Life is turbulent, and sometimes we hold a grudge, something which I've done all too often. All we can do is remember that we're all as confused as we are ourselves. Nobody has everything figured out and nobody ever attains the perfection we first dream of. All we can do is reach out to every person and say "hey, I'm here too" and make our little corner of the world better than when we found it. So, I'm taking a break, and when I come back I hope to make my little corner of massive better than the mess I left it in, and reach out those players like me who are confused and hurt and just say "hey, I'm here too." I can say now that, yes someone is there. Yes. Someone cares.
"Is anybody there? Does anybody care? Does anybody see what I see?"
Fans of the musical 1776 will remember this particular line from John Adams, portrayed by William Daniels. He stands in an empty room, asking if his arduous fighting for American Independence in Congress means anything. Is anyone listening to him anymore? Does anyone care that he cares? Over the last two-and-a-half weeks I have been contemplating my future on Massive this song has appeared in my playlist more than once. Each time I am left with the same question "Is anybody there? Does anybody care?"
If you were to do "/Seen urnackofirtath" you would be told that I have been on this server for over a year. That would be wrong. I first logged onto the server for ten minutes over a year ago, looked around and then left. However, in the summer of 2016, the world of minecraft servers snatched my interest up again and one name enraptured my imagination: Massivecraft.
I have always had an active imagination ever since I was little. The idea of becoming wound up in the story of the server, of political twists and turns, intrigue and mystery, of new faces and people like me who were ready to join in on epic quests and arches. It was months before I was allowed to have minecraft back on my computer at the time due to a misunderstanding a year before that, but every moment leading up to it I dreamt of characters and stories I couldn't wait to tell.
In the recent weeks, I have been mortally distrssse that there are no stories now. In my six months on this server I have destroyed three characters. Three major characters I dedicated my heart and soul to, and each destroyed by the very roleplay I had drempt of engaging in. I have dedicated every spare moment of my already cramped schedule to trying to create a character that you, my fellow players, could partake in. And now, three characters later, I am done.
Gideon Laine has been wrecked. I had created him as my last attempt at the Roleplay scene of Regalia, after having lost two beloved characters. Before I created him, I had already considered leaving the server, but stayed on and created a new character at the behest of my friends here, whose undying support has been both heartwarming and soul stirring. However, Gideon was my last best hope. With the demise of his reputation in Regalia, the utter IC and OOC vitriol spewed and heaped upon him, as well as the end of the current noble system, I may no longer have a choice in the matter. I have tried in vain to assemble a new family, to apply for a new nobility status, and received nothing. I no longer have the time to craft a new character.
Once again as when I first created Gideon Laine, my friends have done all they can to support me. This time however, there may be nothing left to do. I have come close to leaving on multiple occasions over the last few weeks to leaving and I am at a loss for what to do. As such, of the situation does not improve this week, I will be withdrawing from the Roleplay community indefinitely. Although I will be active sometimes among the faction ended, there is nothing left to hold me to Regalia, for which I am devastatingly remorseful of. I am left wondering yet "Is anybody there? Does anybody care?"
"Dedications"@EternallyCatfish @Koajack @AtticCat @SpinSpinDizzy @WalnutNinja @dboy_101 @Miss_Confined
@Ghirko
Fans of the musical 1776 will remember this particular line from John Adams, portrayed by William Daniels. He stands in an empty room, asking if his arduous fighting for American Independence in Congress means anything. Is anyone listening to him anymore? Does anyone care that he cares? Over the last two-and-a-half weeks I have been contemplating my future on Massive this song has appeared in my playlist more than once. Each time I am left with the same question "Is anybody there? Does anybody care?"
If you were to do "/Seen urnackofirtath" you would be told that I have been on this server for over a year. That would be wrong. I first logged onto the server for ten minutes over a year ago, looked around and then left. However, in the summer of 2016, the world of minecraft servers snatched my interest up again and one name enraptured my imagination: Massivecraft.
I have always had an active imagination ever since I was little. The idea of becoming wound up in the story of the server, of political twists and turns, intrigue and mystery, of new faces and people like me who were ready to join in on epic quests and arches. It was months before I was allowed to have minecraft back on my computer at the time due to a misunderstanding a year before that, but every moment leading up to it I dreamt of characters and stories I couldn't wait to tell.
In the recent weeks, I have been mortally distrssse that there are no stories now. In my six months on this server I have destroyed three characters. Three major characters I dedicated my heart and soul to, and each destroyed by the very roleplay I had drempt of engaging in. I have dedicated every spare moment of my already cramped schedule to trying to create a character that you, my fellow players, could partake in. And now, three characters later, I am done.
Gideon Laine has been wrecked. I had created him as my last attempt at the Roleplay scene of Regalia, after having lost two beloved characters. Before I created him, I had already considered leaving the server, but stayed on and created a new character at the behest of my friends here, whose undying support has been both heartwarming and soul stirring. However, Gideon was my last best hope. With the demise of his reputation in Regalia, the utter IC and OOC vitriol spewed and heaped upon him, as well as the end of the current noble system, I may no longer have a choice in the matter. I have tried in vain to assemble a new family, to apply for a new nobility status, and received nothing. I no longer have the time to craft a new character.
Once again as when I first created Gideon Laine, my friends have done all they can to support me. This time however, there may be nothing left to do. I have come close to leaving on multiple occasions over the last few weeks to leaving and I am at a loss for what to do. As such, of the situation does not improve this week, I will be withdrawing from the Roleplay community indefinitely. Although I will be active sometimes among the faction ended, there is nothing left to hold me to Regalia, for which I am devastatingly remorseful of. I am left wondering yet "Is anybody there? Does anybody care?"
"Dedications"@EternallyCatfish @Koajack @AtticCat @SpinSpinDizzy @WalnutNinja @dboy_101 @Miss_Confined
@Ghirko
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