I'm terribly sorry about the death of your character-- it isn't the best experience in the world-- but, as everyone else has learned on this server, your actions in RP will have consequences, depending on what your character's decisions turn out to be and how severe their transgressions rank lawfully.
What concerns me is that you haven't learned from your mistake, blatantly duplicating your first character through an offspring of the same name. You also seem to want to seek out revenge on the guard, which is a very futile and self-detrimental goal. Best to just create a new character when-- or if-- you are unbanned in the near future.