- Joined
- Sep 23, 2014
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As of late I have lost the will to even log onto massive, the fear that more insults will come just became too much. I feel hated, unwanted, like an annoying fly that won't go away. And I know full well that it is all my fault. I thought I could change myself but I ended up repeating my mistakes over and over again. The worst part is that I dragged others into the products of my own incompetence and they suffered as well. I was unable to meet the standard for massive rp and I am sorry for that. The hardest part of all this is that I never did anything for selfish intent, I only wanted others around me to have fun. But I failed at even that. Some people even directly told me that they hate my guts. I am inept and horrendous at rp, it took me so much longer than it should have to realize that. I was afraid to ask for help again for that would mean that all the time I spent on Massive was for nothing. Massive became my home a long time ago and I really don't want to leave but the stress from it is becoming unbearable. Please, someone help me...
