The Truth

[Mekking1]

So, this is something uncharacteristic of me: A serious post on the Massive forums. usually all of my posts are memes, or RP related.
But its time to tell the truth behind my sudden disappearance after being so hyped up to come back.
Its actually a multitude of reasons, but there's two main ones: A stockholm syndrome type problem I'm having where I keep going back to Gmod despite the game's community nearly driving me to suicidal depression on multiple occasions, and the fact that I feel really burnt out. Not on Massive. On everything multiplayer.
Every time I get on to any game someone is throwing the match. or they're abusing the rules to attempt to get me banned. Its at the point where I honestly feel like its the same. And I've started to regress to my old ways of assuming the worst is gonna happen when I log in, even on Massive. That some Game staff decided to use an old issue as a permaban excuse. Or some toxic player will call me a retard and tell me to hang myself.
Lemme note: No I'm not saying the Gamestaff are actually like that. There's an anxiety within me that makes me think its gonna happen though, even though that's completely irrational.
I have no idea when I'll be coming back, if ever. But mainly I just needed a way to get stuff off my chest and since I lack friends this was the only way I could think of to do it. Thanks again for being an awesome community, and maybe I'll get over my problems and come back for real someday.

 

[65jes89]

k bye

 

[MonMarty]

Uh.

 

[Zacatero]

I honestly cant even follow this..... I read it 3 times and absorbed like nothing

 

[Winterless]

Fair winds and following seas my friend

Chungus will guide you

 

[Reaganism]

You just want to get unbanned in old country. It's the withdraval kicking in

 

[Pauleen]

I honestly cant even follow this..... I read it 3 times and absorbed like nothing

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He's saying that he hoped to come back to playing on massive, but has anxiety about being harshly bullied by online communities, and that this anxiety is the reason he has yet to get as involved as he previously stated he would.
That's what I gathered.

 

[Mekking1]

He's saying that he hoped to come back to playing on massive, but has anxiety about being harshly bullied by online communities, and that this anxiety is the reason he has yet to get as involved as he previously stated he would.
That's what I gathered.

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Was it that confusing? Oof

Fair winds and following seas my friend

Chungus will guide you

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Is that the 2019 game of the year?

k bye

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Later

Uh.

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I guess this means no more 1997 memes

 

[MonMarty]

I guess this means no more 1997 memes

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I say this with the best of intentions, but,

Like you outlined yourself, you're seeing ghosts where there are none, and they seem to mostly be stemmed from the fact that you think everyone knows who you are and that you've got a name in this community, when that is not the case. You'd been mostly forgotten by the time you were unbanned (frankly I'd forgotten you had existed up until the point where you posted a really dramatic "Hi I'm back" post on the forums), and honestly none of the Game staff know who you are at all since they are all new people, they weren't around when you were first banned.

Whatever acclaim to fame you might have is purely from circulated gossip as a response of "dude what's this guy on about". It seems to support your hypothesis that you'd rather player on a medium where players frequently get banned for the color of their skin or their sexuality than here, but like, was this thread really necessary? It feels a bit like a flounce because I don't think anyone would have noticed you were gone, because barely anyone noticed you were even back. It's really like "ohh booh drama, faints on a chaise longue all dramatic like".

Best of luck where you're going. I genuinely hope that you can move past what you perceive as your issue, not for the sake of MassiveCraft, but because I think that kind of attitude is harmful to anyone having it in the long run. It sounds like really self-harming paranoia and I don't think anyone should wish that on anyone.

 

[MyCatBubbles]

you rpers really corrupt your own smh

 

[Mekking1]

I say this with the best of intentions, but,

Like you outlined yourself, you're seeing ghosts where there are none, and they seem to mostly be stemmed from the fact that you think everyone knows who you are and that you've got a name in this community, when that is not the case. You'd been mostly forgotten by the time you were unbanned (frankly I'd forgotten you had existed up until the point where you posted a really dramatic "Hi I'm back" post on the forums), and honestly none of the Game staff know who you are at all since they are all new people, they weren't around when you were first banned.

Whatever acclaim to fame you might have is purely from circulated gossip as a response of "dude what's this guy on about". It seems to support your hypothesis that you'd rather player on a medium where players frequently get banned for the color of their skin or their sexuality than here, but like, was this thread really necessary? It feels a bit like a flounce because I don't think anyone would have noticed you were gone, because barely anyone noticed you were even back. It's really like "ohh booh drama, faints on a chaise longue all dramatic like".

Best of luck where you're going. I genuinely hope that you can move past what you perceive as your issue, not for the sake of MassiveCraft, but because I think that kind of attitude is harmful to anyone having it in the long run. It sounds like really self-harming paranoia and I don't think anyone should wish that on anyone.

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Thanks, I appreciate it

you rpers really corrupt your own smh

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Check my DMs its pretty corrupted in there

 

[Pauleen]

Was it that confusing? Oof

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I don't know. I didn't feel confused, but I was replying to zac, who did seem confused.

edit: i just realized this is kinda old and I haven't been on the forums in a minute oops

 

[Jalapeno690]

You need your head checked! Literally no clue who you are

 

[Altalar]

Y'all being unessesarily extra

 

[CnocBride]

You need a break from the Internet, simple as. Go out, have a break, have a KitKat.

 

[weatherbyrd]

Good luck in the real world man. Hope you overcome this.