I shoulda known it wouldn't happen 'cus it wasn't right
I shoulda known it cus it happens every god damned time
Milo was so god damn stupid. He shouldn't have thought it would be okay, should have just listened to the voice inside his head, telling him constantly that he wasn't good enough for anyone and that he was just a burden.
Almost thought we could've been something
Almost thought we could have tried, but
It didn't happen so I need you to get out my life
The voice needed to leave but, Milo found some sort of comfort in its presence. It was always there, whether he liked it or not, and maybe that wasn't such a bad thing.
But the other night I had you in my head, called you on the phone
Want you stealing my time even though I said I wanna be alone
He wasn't sure why it was there or how long it had been since he had last had peace in his mind. He was constantly reminded of how little he meant to people, and how much people didn't love him.
Oh and I should know this could never work
Oh, this could never end well
Know it's only human but I never learn, I want you for myself
There were people he wanted so, so bad. Wanted more than anything, but he couldn't have them. He'd mess it up in the end and just cause more pain then either of them had started with.
I can take the fall: the pain, the pleasure
And you can take it all, for worse, or better
Milo knew he wasn't an easy person, it was obvious. He was loud one moment then quiet and closed of the next. Wide awake and defensive then half asleep and cuddly. It seemed his mind could never seen to decide on what it wanted at any given time.
But oh, what if we're wrong?
What if we're not all that we thought?
Then we won't make it along, but hey, I guess that's us
The boy with sparkling green eyes and a cheeky grin was no more and it seemed nobody knew why. Except Milo that was. He knew all the reasons why he was the way he was but telling people about them hurt too much for the child to handle.
We couldn't help it but you know that doesn't make it right
You say I'm selfish but I know you felt the same inside
People said what he said and did were wrong, and he needed to stop doing it as he was hurting others, but he didn't feel that way. Sometimes the truth had to be voiced and sometimes feelings got hurt in the process, but that was life for you.
Everybody says it's all okay, everybody says we're fine but
Guess someone else is what you need to make you feel alright
Elizabeth said he would get better if he kept taking the pills she had given him, but he didn't have the money to continue to pay for them. He had sworn off stealing as it just kept ending badly for Milo. He couldn't get a job as he was too mentally unstable and the only way he could fix it was with the pills...that he couldn't pay for.
But tomorrow night I'll probably call a cab, show up at your door
Love you in the night time,
leave you in your bed, cold and wanting more
He kept calling Amber his sister and he knew deep down she wasn't that but she couldn't be anything more to him. Not anymore, he was gay, wasn't he?
Oh and I should know this could never work
Oh, this could never end well
Know it's only human, but I never learn, I need you for myself
Milo would figure it all out eventually, maybe not now but someday he would get it all sorted and finally be able to say he was okay and mean it.
I can take the fall: the pain, the pleasure
And you can take it all, for worse, or better
When Amber had explained to him how much she tried to hate him but couldn't, he had to try to keep the tears away. He understood how she felt, as he felt that way about himself too.
But oh, what if we're wrong?
What if we're not all that we thought?
Then we won't make it along, but hey, I guess that's us
Milo has realised long ago he wasn't alright, but he hadn't though anything of it up until now. It had never really been much of a concern to him.
I can take the fall: the pain, the pleasure
And you can take it all, for worse, or better
And now it was. Not only for him but for the people around him. So he needed to make that right, make it so nobody saw the dark places of his mind and keep them tucked as far away as possible.
But oh, what if we're wrong?
What if we're not all that we thought?
Then we won't make it along, but hey, I guess that's love
Hey there everyone! Haven't uploaded one of these since the 30th of May! I've been relatively busy sorting out IRL problems so haven't had as much time to write as I would have liked. Gonna add a quick @Diaprit cause her char is mentioned in this along with the person who plays Elizabeth who's name I cannot remember for the life of me. Anyways, peace out ya'll
-Kaiden
-Kaiden
