Shower Thoughts - Therapeutic Massivecraft Essay

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Therapy Hidden in the Bushes:

With all the work, midterms, COVID, and dare I say whatever the rest of 2020 plans to bring to the table for us, I laid down and 'self-reflected'. Massivecraft, and minecraft in a similar case, is a bit therapeutic dontcha know? Disclaimer! In no way am I a licensed therapist. But- I've attended therapy! Not because I needed it, but rather because my university offers therapy sessions for free. Thus, I'd like to share one of the most profound, memorable responses I vividly remember from my singular therapy session, which follows: "Everyone needs a coping mechanism. You have the bad ones, such as drugs, violence, alcohol, but you also have the goods ones, such as exercise, meditation, therapy." We all need a way to cope, or a coping mechanism. A psychological strategy or adaptation that a person relies on to manage stress. For myself, it has always been Minecraft. It's so easy to blur out the rest of the world around you, and just focus on your "New World" where you can play, build, and manage a game much like an artist can paint a canvas.

Much of the massive community has remained... Static. Lifewise of course! The players I grew up with on Massivecraft were 12-16 when I first logged onto the server. Now they are rapidly reaching the ages of 20-22. I can't name one in-person friend or family member I've consistently talked to for 4-6 years straight. On Massive, I can.




We live like a progress bar. Once we reach 100%, its over.

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Life Expectancy:

The average life expectancy in the USA is 78.54 years. Within the UK it is 81.16 years. Canada, 82.25 years.

21-22 years as a ratio to my life expectancy is 26.92% of my lifetime.

If my life was a book, I'd be 1/3 the way done.



The Ratio Related to Massive:

6 years (the amount of time on Massive) is 7.69% of my life time. However 6 years of my current age (21-22) is 27.27% of my lifetime in which Massivecraft has been impacting me. Given we're talking about a living human being, that's a impactful number. I'm sure many others are in the same shoes as I am in regards to that age and experience. If you take the amount of time you've been playing Massivecraft, and divide by your current age in years, you will come out with the ratio (as a percentage) of how long you've been apart of the community in respect to how long you've been alive. 27% of my life has had Massivecraft impacting it. Transference.



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Transference:

What is transference? Dare I say that transference is related to the ability of passing or impacting another's growth or personality. The antonym to transference is indifference. Which is the inability to change or be impacted. The beauty of these two words, is that you are the one in control when it comes to indifference or transference. You can either let the actions of another impact you, or you can disregard them and forget about them. How you allow the words or actions of another impact you is completely up to you, hence why you are the one in control.

As we grow older, we move away from our families and many of our friends. We live far more independently, and many times this sense of independency and individuality can bring about the sensations of loneliness. Even more so when you're single and living alone in your own apartment or home. Loneliness is a killer, so I highly suggest those feeling alone give this video by Kurzgesagt a watch.





A Personnel Prosopography of Papida: (alliteration intented)

Once I reached the age of 18, I moved out on my own, got an apartment close to campus, (eventually picked up some roommates who usually keep to themselves) and the majority of the time, was by definition isolated. At first, the amount of privacy and self reflection was great. But after some time, that feeling of being alone quickly caught up. Massivecraft however, was just enough social interaction for me. For others struggling with chronic disabilities or mental/social disorders, Massivecraft is even more impactful and valuable.

I nearly forced myself into a position where I'd have to sacrifice my connection with Massivecraft. Whilst going through college, the implications of enlisting in the USMC were quickly approaching. Just before my enlistment however, my little brother intentionally shot himself, my mother got a divorce, my aunt passed away, and as if there wasn't enough nails in the coffin, all the stress eventually caught up on my mothers health resulting in a stroke. I couldn't afford to enlist and with the events going on I had a viable excuse not to. So I didn't. I left and went on a break to tend to my family, and here I am.

In no way am I attempting to undermine the hardships of others by sharing my own recent trials. Admittedly, I don't get very many chances to talk about it. I share this to serve as an example that people on Massive struggle day to day. Taking transference into consideration, I believe it was the help of many close friends at the time from Massive who kept my spirits up. Made a positive impact on my life.



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"List the three points of your thesis statement here" In Summary:
  • We don't stay young forever, our lives are akin to a loading progress bar, and it doesn't load backwards. We can only hope that the progress bar loads as slowly as possible, one tenth of a percent at a time. Live to be grateful. Gratitude is often recognized when it's too late.
  • We can impact each other. Transference is a real thing. Any form of communication with your RP friends can make an impact. Being there for each other to listen or vent, can make an impact. Even our very personalities exposed to one another creates an impact.
  • We all have the potential to struggle. From deceased family members, being overworked, financial struggles, illnesses, and so on, we have trials and tribulations ahead for all of us. It's guaranteed. Value your coping mechanisms, and keep them healthy.
I believe we can all improve our quality of life by recognizing these three points. Have a massive day!
 
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As a way to keep the thread going, I welcome the opportunity for others to share their own experiences or advise in the comment section! Such a circumstance could be defined as emergence, or the instance of a collectives wisdom adding to a discussion.
 
I agree. This has always been in my mind. Last year, I was diagnosed with anxiety when my uncle passed. Not the social nervousness type, but worse. I attended multiple therapy sessions, which felt odd for me, but I made through it in the end.

My anxiety continued for a bit, and around this time, I was taking a break from Massivecraft. When I sat down in front of the screen and created my current character Alaric Keen, I began feeling better and better. I owe it all to MassiveCraft.
 
I agree. This has always been in my mind. Last year, I was diagnosed with anxiety when my uncle passed. Not the social nervousness type, but worse. I attended multiple therapy sessions, which felt odd for me, but I made through it in the end.

My anxiety continued for a bit, and around this time, I was taking a break from Massivecraft. When I sat down in front of the screen and created my current character Alaric Keen, I began feeling better and better. I owe it all to MassiveCraft.

Although I don't suffer from any mental illnesses, I know that GAD if left unchecked, can be chronic and lead to other illnesses such as chronic depression. It was good that you attended therapy. It's not a sign that you're vulnerable or cowardly, but rather a sign that you're brave.

Therapy is so underestimated, and quite frankly underrated. Even the creator of the dark humor show "Rick and Morty" admitted that therapy was just not something he wanted to make light fun of because he held it in such high regard. And Rick and Morty literally have 911 jokes and pearl harbor jokes. Similar examples exist all over the internet. I just used the Rick & Morty example because I believe a lot of the player base is familiar with the show.
 
When I was really young, my parents got a divorce. My dads got custody over my brother and I. Right there and then causes some issues, as I never had a true mother figure until a few years later, when my dad met my step-mom. She was harsh on us at first, but she did so to where we didn't become picky brats. Over time, we became better, but we had our trials to pass through. When I was 10(or 13 I can't remember anymore), it was the last time I actually saw my real mother. It hurt me. She just up and abandoned us. Only tried calling us once, but my talk with her lasted 1 minute as she then wanted to talk with me dad. What hurts even more is that I have two twin half sisters, who my brother and I want to get away from our mother. Then, on Febuary 6th, 2017.. my father got into a gasoline accident in front of both my brother's and I's eyes. We were scarred mentally, as we never thought we'd hear him scream in such pain. Through a blessing from God, my dad managed to survive and fought through to get himself back to health. But, during that time, we lost our favorite dog. Molly, who was more my dad's dog. She was wonderful, loving to play in the water and only barked when something wrong happened. Then, during March of that same year. Molly had a seizure in front of my eyes. The only people in the house were my step-brother, a family friend, and myself. My brother was working and my dad was still at the hospital along with my mother, who was helping him through this. Molly did not make it through the night, as the doctors believe she had a tumor in her head that caused the seizure. Even with it out of my control, I blame myself for it to this day. Something more could have been done, but I clearly couldn't see it. After slowly recovering, In 2019 on Father's day, my dad step mom and I visited my grandfather, who was fighting bone cancer. He was on the road to recovery, as he started to move his feet without much pain. Then, 4 days later, he had a stroke in his sleep. It hurt my dad and I the most, as we thought he'd get through it. We still believe that he is watching over us, taking care of us, comforting us when we need it. And that's just it with life, those who have passed are watching over you, protecting you from the harms of this world. Remain strong and never give up, because we will get through this. Together.
 
When I was really young, my parents got a divorce. My dads got custody over my brother and I. Right there and then causes some issues, as I never had a true mother figure until a few years later, when my dad met my step-mom. She was harsh on us at first, but she did so to where we didn't become picky brats. Over time, we became better, but we had our trials to pass through. When I was 10(or 13 I can't remember anymore), it was the last time I actually saw my real mother. It hurt me. She just up and abandoned us. Only tried calling us once, but my talk with her lasted 1 minute as she then wanted to talk with me dad. What hurts even more is that I have two twin half sisters, who my brother and I want to get away from our mother. Then, on Febuary 6th, 2017.. my father got into a gasoline accident in front of both my brother's and I's eyes. We were scarred mentally, as we never thought we'd hear him scream in such pain. Through a blessing from God, my dad managed to survive and fought through to get himself back to health. But, during that time, we lost our favorite dog. Molly, who was more my dad's dog. She was wonderful, loving to play in the water and only barked when something wrong happened. Then, during March of that same year. Molly had a seizure in front of my eyes. The only people in the house were my step-brother, a family friend, and myself. My brother was working and my dad was still at the hospital along with my mother, who was helping him through this. Molly did not make it through the night, as the doctors believe she had a tumor in her head that caused the seizure. Even with it out of my control, I blame myself for it to this day. Something more could have been done, but I clearly couldn't see it. After slowly recovering, In 2019 on Father's day, my dad step mom and I visited my grandfather, who was fighting bone cancer. He was on the road to recovery, as he started to move his feet without much pain. Then, 4 days later, he had a stroke in his sleep. It hurt my dad and I the most, as we thought he'd get through it. We still believe that he is watching over us, taking care of us, comforting us when we need it. And that's just it with life, those who have passed are watching over you, protecting you from the harms of this world. Remain strong and never give up, because we will get through this. Together.

Divorce is something I am strongly familiar with. (Between both of my parents, I've gone through 7). I don't say this to one up you of course! I haven't faced abandonment nearly as much as you have described, as I still am fortunate enough to have a relation with both my parents. Additionally, no matter how many you go through, they still hurt, and are especially confusing to us when we're young. The sense of powerlessness in a situation such as that, (and I think you can agree with me), changes/impacts your character and personality for the rest of your life.

I made myself a promise at the age of 17, and one I still live by today. Perhaps you could promise yourself in a similar manner. The self-promise I made was to learn from the mistakes of my parents, and to live my relationship life differently. Strive to compromise with your future partner and do everything in your power to find the right one. You know of the pain of both abandonment, and divorce, and through that pain I'm confident you can strive for a love life (if you're looking for one) that you and your potential children can take pride in.

I really hope this helps. Once again, I'm not a therapist, but divorce has been something I've felt so strongly about so I just had to reach out. If you'd want a more detailed discussion, you know me on discord.
 
I think a lot of people (not everyone of course) internalize this idea that Massive is some sort of cringy thing, bubbling it down to, ah, I'm roleplaying a made up character with people who are essentially strangers on a kids game, and I think I'd die if someone found this out about me. I was like this for the longest time with Massive, but as you say, it is so much deeper than that.

Like any hobby or social gathering of any kind, it allows you to interact with others and form some really deep connections, and Massive can be that opening for people. Especially to people growing up with anxiety, depression, isolation, and more, this place has become a sort of outlet. It goes beyond just roleplay and the stories we generate together, even the stories we make together turning into deep friendships and connections. It's something special.

So when it comes back to this boiling down of considering it cringe to spend so much time on, god forbid, a Minecraft server with characters that aren't real in an equally fantasy world, it's more than that. These characters mean something, whether to you or others. These stories mean something, the relationships with others that you form mean something. Sometimes, they can even be an extension of ourselves, as whether we like it or not, our characters always have a piece of ourselves inside them without us realizing. (well, more so this is something I believe in, aha).

This server is just one in a million of ways people find ways to connect with one another and express themselves. I've compared Massive to the likes of other roleplay communities formed in other games like WoW or GTAV, and I honestly think this is one of the best ways TO scratch that itch of roleplay with such a deep, wonderous lore, intricate storylines, dedicated community and wonderful amounts of creative freedom.

What I'm trying to say is, (especially on the note of transference) is that I want people to realize that Massive is more than just a Minecraft server, and it's okay to spend hours of your time poured into it with all your passions and more. I think it's helped many deal with problems and give themselves a form of escapism, as well as forming some genuine and true friendships, even romantic relationships. This isn't to say Massive is perfect, every community has it's flaws, but the people that have struggled in their lifes I feel have the most connection to this server. So many people have hard lives and find Massive as an outlet.

[[Personal Storytime]]
Honestly, I think I'm just rambling at this point, but it's important to me. Massive was the first thing I truly felt like I was apart of something, even in my early days when I spent every single day with a small group of friends who only rp'd with each other and no one else. Due to horrible anxiety, I was never in school to the point where I had to redo my senior year, never really forming anydeep relationship with really anyone as I was honestly never there, and my anxiety made me never want to hang out with anyone outside of school. Massive sort of changed that, similar how you make friend online in video games, it was like that but deeper. The lore, the stories, the people I met clung in my mind and I clung onto it, it was more than just a fps game or mmorpg, it allows you to make your own story, and be changed by the stories around you. It's even allowed me some deep introspection on who I am and to others. I've even went and traveled across the US just to see people who I met on massive. And the people I've met from this server, god, the people I've met, they have all impacted me in such deep ways, even the people I don't talk to as much as I used to have all helped me learn, feel, understand and grow, even help develop who I am today. I'm so much more different to how I was before I came on the server because of it, and I mean that in a good way. Eventually, I started telling my real life friends that I still managed to keep about this hobby and interest, I'd ramble on for hours about the adventures Sylvi went on and the stories that were made, and they welcomed it. It is a hobby, a special interest, a way to express yourself and meet others. And it can be really fun and.. special.

TLDR: Massive isn't a cringe thing. It's not a waste of time and it's not a bad thing to delve so much time into. It's a social community like any other (and probably among the best for roleplay outside of dnd quite honestly) and can become an outlet for many as a way to form friendships, destress from life, and express yourself creatively in ways you probably never considered. AKA, HAVE FUN and it's alright to be impacted by something that initially seems silly (and it isn't!!) Just be sure to do it healthily of course, haha.
 
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I think a lot of people (not everyone of course) internalize this idea that Massive is some sort of cringy thing, bubbling it down to, ah, I'm roleplaying a made up character with people who are essentially strangers on a kids game, and I think I'd die if someone found this out about me. I was like this for the longest time with Massive, but as you say, it is so much deeper than that.

Like any hobby or social gathering of any kind, it allows you to interact with others and form some really deep connections, and Massive can be that opening for people. Especially to people growing up with anxiety, depression, isolation, and more, this place has become a sort of outlet. It goes beyond just roleplay and the stories we generate together, even the stories we make together turning into deep friendships and connections. It's something special.

So when it comes back to this boiling down of considering it cringe to spend so much time on, god forbid, a Minecraft server with characters that aren't real in an equally fantasy world, it's more than that. These characters mean something, whether to you or others. These stories mean something, the relationships with others that you form mean something. Sometimes, they can even be an extension of ourselves, as whether we like it or not, our characters always have a piece of ourselves inside them without us realizing. (well, more so this is something I believe in, aha).

This server is just one in a million of ways people find ways to connect with one another and express themselves. I've compared Massive to the likes of other roleplay communities formed in other games like WoW or GTAV, and I honestly think this is one of the best ways TO scratch that itch of roleplay with such a deep, wonderous lore, intricate storylines, dedicated community and wonderful amounts of creative freedom.

What I'm trying to say is, (especially on the note of transference) is that I want people to realize that Massive is more than just a Minecraft server, and it's okay to spend hours of your time poured into it with all your passions and more. I think it's helped many deal with problems and give themselves a form of escapism, as well as forming some genuine and true friendships, even romantic relationships. This isn't to say Massive is perfect, every community has it's flaws, but the people that have struggled in their lifes I feel have the most connection to this server. So many people have hard lives and find Massive as an outlet.

[[Personal Storytime]]
Honestly, I think I'm just rambling at this point, but it's important to me. Massive was the first thing I truly felt like I was apart of something, even in my early days when I spent every single day with a small group of friends who only rp'd with each other and no one else. Due to horrible anxiety, I was never in school to the point where I had to redo my senior year, never really forming anydeep relationship with really anyone as I was honestly never there, and my anxiety made me never want to hang out with anyone outside of school. Massive sort of changed that, similar how you make friend online in video games, it was like that but deeper. The lore, the stories, the people I met clung in my mind and I clung onto it, it was more than just a fps game or mmorpg, it allows you to make your own story, and be changed by the stories around you. It's even allowed me some deep introspection on who I am and to others. I've even went and traveled across the US just to see people who I met on massive. And the people I've met from this server, god, the people I've met, they have all impacted me in such deep ways, even the people I don't talk to as much as I used to have all helped me learn, feel, understand and grow, even help develop who I am today. I'm so much more different to how I was before I came on the server because of it, and I mean that in a good way. Eventually, I started telling my real life friends that I still managed to keep about this hobby and interest, I'd ramble on for hours about the adventures Sylvi went on and the stories that were made, and they welcomed it. It is a hobby, a special interest, a way to express yourself and meet others. And it can be really fun and.. special.

TLDR: Massive isn't a cringe thing. It's not a waste of time and it's not a bad thing to delve so much time into. It's a social community like any other (and probably among the best for roleplay outside of dnd quite honestly) and can become an outlet for many as a way to form friendships, destress from life, and express yourself creatively in ways you probably never considered. AKA, HAVE FUN and it's alright to be impacted by something that initially seems silly (and it isn't!!) Just be sure to do it healthily of course, haha.

I think it was Stephen Fry, who said "A true thing poorly expressed, is a lie." You hit the nail on the head with this one.

The strict definition of community is a strata of people having a particular characteristic in common, whether that be interests, goals, or common attitudes. The majority on Massive who play on the regular share an interest, a goal, a characteristic trait. What we all share is unbeknownst to me, but by the definition of community it must exist.

Panda, when I mentioned "I believe it was the help of many close friends at the time from Massive who kept my spirits up. Made a positive impact on my life." There were several players that came to mind, you were at the very least top three. You're an old lady in a 22 yr olds body. If you listened to yourself talk, you'd probably be flabbergasted at the wisdom behind your own words. (LOL! OLD LADY SYLVI MEME >:D)

Not only have you gone through horrible anxiety, but you've also started life with a lot less than most. I still remember the chats about your health and hope you're still going strong today. I wonder if the transference, or the impact controlled by you as a result of these trials and tribulations, resulted in a positive reflection, because your personality is very profound.

I really wish I could help you and others with anxiety, but the truth is I rarely feel anxious (really only when I'm starving, which is a physical anxiety). I just wasn't bullied enough in highschool to have my self esteem hit rock bottom.
 
What we all share is unbeknownst to me
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I really wish I could help you and others with anxiety
You do so everyday with your characters, they're almost always so friendly, funny, and approachable. It's why I miss Benji so much!!
I bet you've brought smiles in roleplay about a million times. Ooc, you strive for fairness and standing up for what you feel is right and you've done a lot of people some real good by just being how you are. Keep at it or else.

I just wasn't bullied enough in highschool to have my self esteem hit rock bottom.
Yeah please get bullied sometime soon so you can finally understand us all, ugh.
 
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You do so everyday with your characters, they're almost always so friendly, funny, and approachable. It's why I miss Benji so much!!
I bet you've brought smiles in roleplay about a million times. Ooc, you strive for fairness and standing up for what you feel is right and you've done a lot of people some real good by just being how you are. Keep at it or else.


Yeah please get bullied sometime soon so you can finally understand us all, ugh.
We all have had gone through hard times. With 2020, we have seen hell and back. Beyond anything people have experienced. You are strong and always will be.