Avynn flipped through another page in the book she was studying. Her eyes darting slowly over the pages. Taking in everything that she could. Once in a while, her eyes darted back to reread something or look at a picture. She'd often shift to move her body to the motion the book gave. Around the table where scattered books of what she had dedicated herself to before and now newly. She for once felt dedicated to something again, she just had to prove herself. She just had to. She had failed Leonzio, the first man she'd ever looked for approval in, wanting him to be proud of who she was. She had failed Sigurna, the person who had given her everything, who had been her friend through thick and thin. Failed Alexander, the boy who reminded her so much of herself, the one who had trusted her even in a time she doubted herself. She had failed Aesling. Failed Endrai'll. Failed Conrad. Failed Julie. Failed Garth. Failed Failed Failed. She had hurt them all...
Now, she'd lost the one thing she held above all other, the one person who met everything to her. The one that had never left her mind since day one. Even when she wasn't with them...
She had lost everything.
All the trust, everything. It was gone.
She refused to fail again. She refused to fail Wulfram. She refused to fail the people she still had left. Erwald, Agnette...the only ones that she still felt trusted and cared for her.
She looked at the sword techniques and the common books that her eyes had set on. She didn't doubt that this was the right thing to do. At first, she had thought it would push her further away from her blood. The blood of the North. Losing her accents learning how to train to use a sword. How could any in her family approve? Already so disappointed that she had Imperialized.
No.
She would show them that she was still proud of her blood even if it was honored in a different way on her side.
She wasn't going to give up, that was what mattered.
Her hand drifted to the handkerchief she kept tucked into her shirt pocket, over her heart.
Oh no, she'd never give up. Not when she had so much to work for.
OOC note:
Avynn has been improving and will be fixing a lot of her accent. Starting with having changed the simple things such as. 'ya - you, ta - the, wit' - with' stuff as such.
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