Spoiler: Upswing (Completed) Not All Those Who Wander are Lost I don’t know where I’m going, and I don’t know where I’ve been. But I’m moving forward, one step at a time Because I know where I want to be Without or within Whether good deeds or sin I’ll stand up no matter The weight of where I’ve been With the wind against me And stones tied to my feet I just keep moving forward I’m telling you I won’t be beat So forget those rehearsed lines Those well practiced lies of victory That you tell yourself rather than me Heart of Mine There's a wind blowing In this heart of mine Don’t know where I’m going Tugged along, caught on a line Those eyes stir up a storm In this heart of mine Cyclones set to a thunderous beat This electric tempest, it’s not the norm But it’s warm, unlike snow or sleet These feelings rage on, like a winter rain Nonstop like a summer gale, consuming like a wildfire Numbing all of the pain, stronger than Novocaine In this heart of mine But I’ve got to be careful, walking this high wire One misstep and I’ll miss you I need to stay solid, not see through In this heart of mine Come Along with Me Life is a long road, But our destination? It has streets paved in gold Walk with me, why don’t you? Instead of floating along, doing as your told. Lets ride the winds of fate Come on, we’ve got a date With destiny And I really don’t want to be late. Crystal Clouded Nothing you could ever do to me Would ever change the way I see You Call it crazy, that I’m biased or blind If that's true, give me a sign Saying so, and I’ll bare it proud I’ve fallen hard, why you ask? Because around you, happiness isn’t a mask. All this time it never occured to me That feeling this real could be a reality Truth of Life Most feel liberated By their hobbles Given purpose by guidelines What they call structure I would call chains What we say keeps us free Is truly oppression, controlling the reins But with darkness comes light A dawn after every long night Then for me, there is you Drives me insane, boils my brain And without her I’m nothing My cry for our freedom Is lost in commonality Like a drop in the sea Spoiler: Grief (Uncompleted) Oh I could die right now I feel so alive right now Nothing could compare to this The one thing I know I’ll miss Back when I didn’t know of this I saw no reason to exist I’ll never not care for you I’m gonna have to claim otherwise But it’s a lie What would be best for you and Me would be for me to leave and Leave you be, let me live where I lay Like I lied to leave so you wouldn’t know I died It’d break my heart in heaven if you cried Let me be, I got a say, and I say It’s time to leave, I’ll just be on my way Rather run than hide and bide my time If I want you, I’m gonna have to change But I don’t think I can, it’s out of range I’m out of my depth and out of my time My clock ticked out by the end of this rhyme Denial of Self It’s not so much that I’m gone as Off and on to better things, they set me free And of all the things that ever were None are so great as what will be If I stay I’ll only stumble I wasn’t meant to just boast and bumble So excuse me if I don’t seem humble Hit the ground like I was made of lead Should be dead, but it seems I’m not So while I’m here I’ll get ahead Don’t try and stop me or I’ll see red You hear what I said? Unnamed (Anger) Tick tock, I’m ticked off Wasted my time, it’s lost This kicked off without thought I’ll admit, the whole idea had fault with it, but My problem is I knew the stakes inside of me Up at night, I’d lay awake riddled for anxiety with what could be And everybody telling me it easily would be It was all a trainwreck I refused to see All of this anger I carry with me Burdened with the weight of everything (Insert Bargaining) Leaving a Depression in this World It’s been too long I’ve changed too much Life is not as it once was Nor is it as good once as it ever was Because once you’ve had it all Anything less feels less then small Don’t settle for a draw, winning is all Not a win means it’s a loss You want it all, take the call Shoot your shot, risk a fall Don’t be like me, an empty hall With no lockers, no bell - Not noble Wasting away like that scene at Chernobyl I’ll live, it’s just a half life I’ll live, I’ll just have strife Serene Acceptance The brightest stars burn out the fastest It’s not that I don’t plan to last it’s Just a notion, if I shared it it’d Cause commotion. It’s confusin’ I can’t talk about my health without losing So I hold it in me, healthy or not Then I think of you and my heart is in a knot My head in a noose, pull it tight. Don’t leave it loose.