No Idea What To Title This As, But I'm Sorry.

[Slonky]

If you've ever roleplayed around me, been around me or just kinda seen me in any chat, you've probably noticed my prick-like behavior. For instance, whenever someone roleplays something that bugs me, I lash out at them with either a hateful remark or insult. That being said, I'm extremely sorry for all of those words and if I hurt anyone's feelings OOC. I often "roast" people OOC because I find it funny, or others find it funny; I'm not going to give out said names of those people. However, my hate directed at the server has gotten too dang intense as of late, and it needs to stop as soon as possible. You know, there's really no excuse for why I'm being this way; however, I believe my anger from real life problems has been directed at this server. I mean, sometimes I believe there's a lot of that do that, and I've seen it firsthand. But in the end, my hate is just too disgusting. So yet again, I want to apologize for what I've said.

There's a line that usually people never cross, and every single time I'm on the server I seem to cross it. Whenever someone says "Say that one more time and I'll..." I always have to say it one more time. Maybe it's because I'm just a jerk, but there's no stopping to that. Also, if you say something and say I shouldn't say it, I'll always say it. All of that is just me being quite immature, and I know that I do this everyday. However, I also believe that there's other people on this server that do the exact same thing. But I'm probably the worst out of the bunch. If any of you have know me in the past - cyncrwler, HoldingSlinky, or Slinkie_ - you've probably noticed that I used to be quite a nice dude. Recent events in my life have changed me to a certain extent that I can't explain. Maybe that means I should take a break from Massive, who knows.

The fact of the matter is, I'm just someone not a lot of people like to be around, and I've accepted that. During my entire experience on Massivecraft, I've realized that you constantly move to different groups of friends, more like acquaintances, constantly. Just like Highschool. Or that's just me. One of my favorite things to do is make people laugh, and as of right now I'm only making them irritated or disgusted, so like I've said before, I'm sorry. I really am. This post might be real short, and I wish that I could make it longer, but like most men these days, I can't. We're given a size, and we have to deal with it. Therefore, I'm going to end it right here.

Sorry.

 

[valuevillain]

I wish that I could make it longer, but like most men these days, I can't.

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This made me chuckle a bit. ;>

 

[DrFong]

To me at least, apologies are meaningless. I want to see positive changes to behavior or it's all hot air.

Knowing you screwed up is a good first step. Making changes in how you act will show people that you are serious in wanting to change how you are viewed by the community. Good luck!

 

[MonMarty]

I'll tentatively support what Fong said. But I understand where your frustration came from, and you're not completely without base.

Either way, you won't have any issue with me, as long as you treat the people around me fairly.

 

[Gabauchi]

Hey, at least you've recognized the behavior. A lot of people don't even know better.

 

[ArthurDomo]

If you've ever roleplayed around me, been around me or just kinda seen me in any chat, you've probably noticed my prick-like behavior. For instance, whenever someone roleplays something that bugs me, I lash out at them with either a hateful remark or insult. That being said, I'm extremely sorry for all of those words and if I hurt anyone's feelings OOC. I often "roast" people OOC because I find it funny, or others find it funny; I'm not going to give out said names of those people. However, my hate directed at the server has gotten too dang intense as of late, and it needs to stop as soon as possible. You know, there's really no excuse for why I'm being this way; however, I believe my anger from real life problems has been directed at this server. I mean, sometimes I believe there's a lot of that do that, and I've seen it firsthand. But in the end, my hate is just too disgusting. So yet again, I want to apologize for what I've said.

There's a line that usually people never cross, and every single time I'm on the server I seem to cross it. Whenever someone says "Say that one more time and I'll..." I always have to say it one more time. Maybe it's because I'm just a jerk, but there's no stopping to that. Also, if you say something and say I shouldn't say it, I'll always say it. All of that is just me being quite immature, and I know that I do this everyday. However, I also believe that there's other people on this server that do the exact same thing. But I'm probably the worst out of the bunch. If any of you have know me in the past - cyncrwler, HoldingSlinky, or Slinkie_ - you've probably noticed that I used to be quite a nice dude. Recent events in my life have changed me to a certain extent that I can't explain. Maybe that means I should take a break from Massive, who knows.

The fact of the matter is, I'm just someone not a lot of people like to be around, and I've accepted that. During my entire experience on Massivecraft, I've realized that you constantly move to different groups of friends, more like acquaintances, constantly. Just like Highschool. Or that's just me. One of my favorite things to do is make people laugh, and as of right now I'm only making them irritated or disgusted, so like I've said before, I'm sorry. I really am. This post might be real short, and I wish that I could make it longer, but like most men these days, I can't. We're given a size, and we have to deal with it. Therefore, I'm going to end it right here.

Sorry.

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I'm a prick and a monster but everyone loves me. <3

 

[BenRekt]

Not an RPer but it's cool that you admit your flaws, good job.

 

[flp97]

You know, there's really no excuse for why I'm being this way; however, I believe my anger from real life problems has been directed at this server.

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This right here people. This is being brave. You have my deepest respect Slonky, being conscious about your actions and being sincere is a step towards strengthening yourself as a person. I get so inspired by this, best vibes

 

[Zacatero]

I dont know you but i can say this. I see this as a mature move. Now..

I want to see positive changes to behavior or it's all hot air.

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Dr Fong has it ALL RIGHT. What ive seen time and time again are people who do something then apologize and and do it again and apologize and rinse and repeat. Its tiring and quite frankly its no fun. What you've done here is a very mature thing and a step in the right direction for your endeavors.

 

[DipliPsychi]

Alright.

 

[Gwyndo]

I wish that I could make it longer, but like most men these days, I can't.

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The roasts are too real

 

[Magivore]

I'm not here to talk about mental illnesses, I'm here to give Slonky a hug. I can't quite remember if at any point you hurt me, but nonetheless, it does take a bit of courage to apologize, and even more to stick with it. You're a good fella in my book, from what I know about you; just working on being that way to others, something I also struggle with, hhh. Just remember that pleasing absolutely everyone is difficult and can be unhealthy. If you still have someone who disagrees with you, whether it be one or ten, so long as fourfold that amount appreciate you, you're doing pretty good. You're not a bad guy. C:

However, I would hope you guys not talk about that 'disorder' / 'attention seeking' you are insisting is important... Are you really gonna discuss that when someone is trying to apologize? It's like dismissing him entirely. :/
@znake1468 @Lord_Aza @AetherShadow

 

[Slonky]

I'm puzzled by the arguments within my post, which was entirely meant to offer the audience a positive feel to it. This thread wasn't about arguing on what a sociopath is, it's about me trying to let people know I'm sorry about what I did. It isn't supposed to be like a Republican Debate in America. If you guys could, be pleased to, stop those comments, then that'd be wondrous.

 

[valuevillain]

Why make a post like this in the first place other then for attention? Couldn't you have apologized in private or couldn't you have been a better person either by change or default?

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I sincerely doubt Slonky would've done this only for attention, having talked to him, and him legitimately feeling sorry; working out a way to improve his attitude and general outlook. This thread was mostly created to get his message out there, as a general message to all and any that'd been affected by his recent shift in behaviour, as it would be hard to come in contact with the people affected, let alone if he even knew who they all were. And he is working toward becoming a "better person", and I'd say he already is, but that's my own biased opinion. It upsets me that all this hostility is on a thread meant for apologies. Though you may not respond, I wanted to get my point out there to let you know what this thread was meant for, if you didn't catch the message from Slonky.

 

[Zacatero]

My apologies @Slonky

@Lord_Aza and I have removed our comments.

 

[Slonky]

Why make a post like this in the first place other then for attention? Couldn't you have apologized in private or couldn't you have been a better person either by change or default?

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Alright. I'm absolutely done with all of your labels, false accusations and rhetoric on my thread. This post was to, like what Ponyo said, get a message out to everyone.

You asked me this: "Couldn't you have apologized in private or couldn't you have been a better person either by change or default?" You know, I'd try doing that, but it's difficult to send private messages to tens of people; most people would agree that it's better to make a thread instead, unless you've only been rude to one person. Also, you wondered if I could've been a better person by change or default, but have you seen a reality in which people are just born good? Yeah, this doesn't mean that people are necessarily bad at one point in their life, but it means that through change... you change. I believe that apologizing is a necessary. if you've done people wrong like I have, step in changing as a person. This is what my therapist told me. So, in a sense, saying I'm sorry is more of a step at becoming a better person for me. I truly wish I could just be a better person by default, however, certain events in my life don't let me do that. Events in your life carve your person, and sometimes that's in the wrong direction, which is the place I was led. This apology was more so for the people that I hurt, because in the back of my mind I knew that I was going to be a better person.

Now for the other part. You accused me of trying to get attention. There is in no way that I want attention, so I don't need to explain myself. However, think what you think. But I will ask you this: do you seek attention when apologizing? I won't even get into the fact that you tried to tell me I was going down the path of "illegal internet cyberstalker", but all of this is in the past. Therefore, I truly hope you can move on from this whole incident. Don't know if I made too much sense during this because I'm so flustered right now.

@MonMarty Could you lock this thread, please? It seems to me like it's just too negative, which was not what I intended it to be.

 

[MonMarty]

A thing or two remains to be said about "communal responsibility". If someone chooses to publicly apologize, regardless if we believe their word or not, it means they are seeking public shared responsibility to hold them to a higher standard. If you don't want to get involved with that, or simply think it's attention seeking, why care to share your opinion? It takes very little effort to be a little encouraging, and it is far too easy to make people stray their intended path with mean words.

Locking by request.