I Need Rp Help.

[WhiteTheKid]

Some of you may know me IG and may have rped with me at some point. Most likely that Rp was of a violent or combat nature. I want to stop. I already have a bad reputation and it is my fault, I am semi-new and came from an Rp server very different from this one. I am simply drawn to violence and combat Rp, it is in my nature. But things are different here and I feel almost as if I am shuned because of the things I did. I am willing to change but I need the help of others to do so. The character I have currently is lonely to play since he has no IC friends. Where I come from heroes are the strongest fighters and the only way people acknowledged you was by being a fighter. It is truely a great transition for me, it almost feels like culture-shock. At the moment I feel like becoming a criminal in the sewers again because I hate the current character I have. At least down there people acknowledged my characters existence and purpose. I've been getting help from some veteran players but I still have zero purpose. So I will wait and see who is willing to help me and then decide whether or not to to go back to that dark place or not.

 

[ApatheticLlama]

So I will wait and see who is willing to help me and then decide whether or not to to go back to that dark place or not.

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I've said it before and I'll say it again - Defeatism is not the way to go.

The very fact that you've made this post clearly shows that you want to improve your roleplay. We've discussed several things that you could do to move away from combat based characters in the past, but you don't seem to have really acted on much of the advice you've been given. I don't think you should make this an 'if x then y' situation wherein you're promising to yourself to go back to something that you've described as a dark place.

If it's a dark place in your eyes, then you're obviously not enjoying it a lot. I don't retract any of the advice I've given you, but I'm somewhat confused by the fact that you've shown immense intention to make a change, but seem to have little drive in that you've not acted on any of the changes I've suggested. I don't know why this is, but making the change that you seek is not something that can occur in a one-day change. It'll require a lot of willpower and as much dedication as it will take to create a fully pacifistic character that runs from conflict and avoids fighting like the plague.

 

[WhiteTheKid]

It is like a drug to be honest, the thrill of defeating your foes to prove your strength. Change does not happen in a day, I agree to that. But I have changed in the aspect that I no longer go in search of random people to fight. My character lacks goals, likes and dislikes. And that is what I need help with, finding purpose for him. Giving him dreams. But I have not had the chance to find those from Rp, that is why I ask for help.