DUSK
As rain softly fell, pattering against the cobbleworked sidewalk, final steps and a set of keys pressing into and turning in a door was heard. As it softly opened a house which would be a new challenge for the Sihai. As while he made up the steps quiet, steps slowly trailing up he opened his quarters. Seating himself, a hollow feeling of both guilt, emptiness and a lingering feeling of failure. As a result of such, Ki's quiet sniffles both from weather and emotions took up the dead filled silent room. As tears began to slowly stream from his eyes his wrist wrapped to immobilization. As he peered to his desk, his love, his books, notes, years of analysis. It all felt meaningless now, it all felt as if it didn't matter anymore. As the days of Kai and Ki playing in the families back yard flushed his mind as he climbed up the stairs and to his room. Memories relapsing feeling as if he lost the closest to him.
Almost ashamed of what had transpired the words rang in his mind. They repeated softly of something his mother told him the day him and his siblings left Dexai. "Ki watch after your sister please, she is my heart and soul." secondly his response. "I would never let anything happen to Kai, don't worry I'll always do her good mom." he remembered his youngest ages of fifteen and twenties, all the adventures, fights and successes the trio had climbed he felt the guilt infest his very began to grab his things, mountains of books, papers, journals. Placing them into bags, onto his bed, neatly assembling his room as tear after tear fell. His mother's words driving into his head endlessly. Thinking of the lowest of his happiness of his young sister in their ventures at sea. The Sihai remembers feeling the empty, lost and stabbed heart of the loss of his biggest ally.
A total paralysis as he felt all of his failures, he grabbed the quill from the inkwell one last time. Writing a cursive letter addressed to his sister. His emotions heightening and lowering in this span. As he felt a sense of defeatedness and failure. He signed the letter with a sigh and suppressed what tears he could in his eyes by blinking them away. He looked the place over, long, harshly. As he released a huff once more, wiping his eyes. As he removed a signature bandanna placing it beside the letter, along with a lit candle on the desk and finally removing his silver necklace with a jaded dragon on the desk. As memories flushed of him leaving home in his first trip with his mercenary group, and the sadness he felt without his lieutenant at his side. And the happiness they both felt when he returned safe, and bestowed each of the three matching necklaces with a jade dragon in the centre. As grabbed his belongings. Slowly stepping down the steps to a new step. The Sihai muttered a quick Wa'an prayer. "My selfish antics have caused me to fail you again Kai-si'en.. I'm sorry I will do my best to pave your prosperous and happy life, to protect you. Please stay safe tonight dear sister of mine, you're the light in a world of dark." he stated. As he reached the bottom of the steps a feeling of lostness unusual to him flooded him. As he opened the door locking it behind him. And left his key upon the desk which the letter and bandanna sat, along with a burning candle with a necklace wrapped around it. He began to head off into the rainy night, heading for the park, rain trickling above his head with a silent sigh. He went for his natural spot.
